UNCHANGING THE PAST

What do i mean by ‘unchanging the past?’ It means leaving every detail of your past life as it is. It’s letting go of what has already happened in your life, to let go doesn’t mean to get rid of, it means to let be. When we let be with compassion everything else fall in to place.

But let me pause for a minute and ask, “what if you were granted a chance to go back in time, what would you do differently or what would you change?” Think about this for a second. Most of us would without hesitation want to change our mistakes, relationship, wrong choices and more. If by any chance this is achieved how would you find things when you come back to the present? Would things be better or as the way you had hoped? I don’t believe that would be the result.

There is part of Navy Seal training called “drown proofing” where they bind your hands behind you back, tie you feet together and dump you into a 9-foot-deep pool. Your job is to survive for five minutes. Most cadets fail drown proofing, upon being tossed into the water many of them panic and scream to be lifted back out. Some struggle until they slip under water where they end up losing consciousness and have to be fished out and resuscitated. But some people make it, and they do so because they understand the counterintuitive lessons.

That is one of the trainings that make a Navy Seal, their will to cling to the struggles, the suffering and the pain is what makes them who they are. What if a navy seal wouldn’t have to go through all that to qualify, what do you think would be the end result? One of the results would be a weak and vulnerable Navy Seal leading to a weak and defeated Nation in the marine sector.

When i first learned how to ride a motorcycle i had to crash a couple times, i got scars in my body that nearly lost my determination, interest and hope of ever learning to ride a bike. But i never gave up i understood the counterintuitive lessons, i had special people by my side who encouraged me to persevere through that time and at the end i became the best rider ever.

There were moments in my life where i made wrong choices,got into wrong relationships and made the people who didn’t add value in my life my role model. But i don’t regret any of that and i wouldn’t change a thing if i were to go back because those mistakes, struggles, difficulties, pain that i went through helped me become who i am today. I feel the way a warrior must feel after years of training; he doesn’t remember the details of everything he learned but he knows how to strike when the time is right.

It’s no use going back to yesterday because you were a different person back then, you were still a work in progress. You did then what you knew how to do, and when you knew better, you did better. -Maya Angelou

When you decide to cling to the past you are muddying your present moments. Your past moments already did their part by shaping you.

Your life is like a play with several acts. Some characters who enter have short roles to play, others much longer. But all are necessary otherwise they wouldn’t be in the play. Embrace them all and move on to the next act. – Wayne Dyer

WHO AM I?

My Father said i could be anything i wanna be and it’s up to me to turn my day dreams into reality. What position do i play? Am on mission everyday to decide for what kind of life i should lead or follow.

Should i lead?, should i follow? I haven’t come to a conclusion i need answers but all i have is options and my heart is always shopping for new identities that need adopting,and that makes the question who am i?

I feel like the actor but in this scene they took away the props,i have nothing to hide behind and here i stand exposed like ten lines left with the question who am i?

Three simple words to plan my time and they are vital,my mind is on standby,my soul is still idle,titles describe content and i have been a book without a cover. I can be someone to follow or someone hardly worth the mention.

But i could change and spend my change and all the bills on fancy things and swallow pills like my friends do, i don’t do drugs but i like to pretend to. i mean its hard to turn down what they lend you,what they send you. Weekends tend to be curious set of days,Fridays and Saturdays i do it all but by Sunday am ashamed of what i did,am on the fence and here i sit.

I go to church sometimes and each time i ask God to answer the question who am i? It only makes sense to ask the maker why He made what He made and since we all look different our purpose can’t be the same,i am someone an individual who is mostly confused and sometimes spiritual looking to answer this question, praying the Maker would respond,hoping society would quiet down so i can listen.